Update

Hey All,

It's been some time since I've updated. I've been feeling really well this week. Maybe a bit too well. Two days after I recovered on Sunday, I had a test. On test day, I also had a meeting with the FYP professor. The next day saw me having an assignment to hand in! and the day after that I had to prepare for a presentation. Also, had KSS powerpoint to do up. 

Yes, I've been up to an average of 4/5am every day and have been simply sleeping only an average of 5 hours a day. I am tired, but I only just have to thank God that at least I recovered before I was given this mountain-load of stuff to do. I felt like I was "forced" to rest, so to speak, just before I embarked on this hectic week.

Thank God for wireless. Cos as I type, it is on my laptop from Jurong Point's Long John Silver's while waiting for a friend.

Next week is recess week! and it's a good and timely break. I feel like travelling, but I think I'll be doing mostly catching up on work, FYP and studying Japanese. Also, there are stuff to prepare for the Japan mission trip. My bro is also having his O'Lvls now and I will be going back to prep him for it.

Last week was really crazy… cos the heavy medication had caused me to have really depressing thoughts - some almost suicidal I must say. But I wasn't really depressed, so I was still in control. In fact, the day after I ended my medication, I was tempted to go back to the docs to ask for more, cos I wasn't - or I thought I wasn't - recovered yet. But it might have been that the medication was a little addictive. Oh well…

I'm really glad it's Friday, and I wished my friend had told me earlier that he would be this late, cos I was planning to do some bassoon practice in my room before dinner and band prac later.

talk about being morbid…

i had a dream this morning, and in that dream, i was a soldier during the japanese war, a naval officer to be precise. i was in a small raft by the big warship, when they told us that a storm was coming up, and i had to get into the big warship quick.

upon entering, i heard the cries of a baby, and also the wailing of a woman. apparently some soldiers didn't like the cry of the baby. so they shot the baby. i didn't see anything, but i heard the shots. and then i heard that they gagged the woman, and tied her up in the air.

in the next scene, i saw the woman tied and gagged on a huge web of wires. and she freed herself somehow, and was trying to make her way down. but there was no escape. and a fellow prisoner told her that too. but she was stubborn and didn't want to listen. and suddenly i changed roles from the onlooker to being that woman.

i realised that at the bottom of the web was the meeting room for the army generals. i tried to look for an escape point but to no avail. so i decided to just play with one of the wires. and i discovered the wires that controlled the lighting of the ship, and so i was just scaring them. at first they thought it was an enemy, but then they realised it was me. and so they shot me. twice at my heart area. and once at the backside.

i remember feeling very numb, but i could still think clearly. the next scene of my dream saw me among some friends back on land, and i managed to squeeze one bullet out of me. the other was still embedded inside. yet i had bled all that i could and the bleeding had stopped. i was struggling to live. not wanting to let go. i remember people telling me they would being me to a surgeon as soon as possible but there weren't any available at that point of time.

all that went through my mind was that i am a survivor.

woke up with my chest area hurting slightly. then i fell back into dreamland… 

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then the dream changed totally. and i was back among some secondary school friends. and there i was in the classroom learning music. and G was the teacher. we were rehearsing our parts, and then i was told to do a duet demonstration. i could feel that it was done in jest. they were "praising" me and yet at the same time making fun of me. i told them i couldn't pull it off. and indeed i didn't. going up just to make a fool of myself. i blamed it on the instrument. i remember the bow i was holding was simply a stick without any hair. and i was given a newer one. (it was a really cool instrument - a foldable cello of sorts.) i remember being given little time to master it. even held it the wrong way when i first got it. but i sounded better than on a normal cello with a hairless bow. but i still lost all techniques at playing it, even though i could read the notes as fast. and then i couldn't continue any more. and then the dream stopped.

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next i knew i was awake 7 minutes before my class starts. so i had to rush there. no time to reflect upon the dreams. but indeed such are the dreams of mine when i'm under heavy medication perhaps?

strange 

saw a doctor and…

i got these many pills to take……

(+.+) i'm dead….

ok very drowsy already
shall go to bed
hopefully i'll recover after this… =\

presenting to you…

ZI CHAR UNCLE!!!

Slogan: With Zi Char Uncle, say bye bye to your hunger! 

waaaah i must say these people are certainly innovative!…. i've just placed my order and almost immediately i got a reply-sms:

heh so cute… they even got a website lor! Click on the Zi Char Uncle above to see what they have to offeR!!

haha.. i think i'm gonna have to get a free meal for this wonderful advertising! Let's hope the food is not bad… cos it's going to be my first time trying it tonight! 

ok back to studying… 

what is wrong with people?

ordered caifun today, and there was a dish with broccoli cauliflower and mushroom. i just wanted the broccoli cos i dislike the other two veges. so i told him to just give me the broccoli. and mind you, almost the whole tray was filled with green stuff rather than white or brown stuff. 

"请给我青色的。“

“青的、黑的、白的。 我什么都给。" he replied curtly.

and then he proceeded to give me all three types…

aaarrrgghhhh don't understand these people… i know they want to give everyone a balance of mushrooms, cauliflowers and broccolis, but i simply requested for just broccolis cos i really won't eat the mushrooms and cauliflowers and even if he gives it to me i'm just gonna throw it away!

might as well just pass it on to someone who would be blessed with more cauliflowers and mushrooms. idiot. 

welcome to the real world

a little honesty can't hurt,

can it?

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thank you my God for the assurance of Your love no matter what. =)

dedicated to the ex-band pres

 found in her room…. tsk tsk… super act cute can?? =p =p =p

Tutorial 4, Q 8.30, Slides 1-4

Slide 1(a) and 1(b) 

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angmohs and rice

as i was buying chicken rice today, i saw an angmoh in the canteen struggling to eat his plate of chicken rice with a pair of chopsticks and a metal spoon. the spoon hung to one side of the plate and he was using only a pair of chopsticks to eat the rice.

 i felt so sorry for him! cos no.1 he was not holding the chopsticks correctly and he couldn't pick up like… the cucumber bit with his chopstick, what more mention the rice, of which he tediously picked up small amounts to put in his mouth. bit by bit.

i guess to these angmohs, it would be pretty foreign to actually eat rice with a spoon! after all, a chinese restaurant is always associated with chopsticks. hmm… but the rice in singapore VS the rice in japan/china/korea is really very very different!

theirs is short grain, and sticky rice, which is definitely easier to pick up with using a pair of chopsticks…  our rice just falls apart if you attempt to pick it up with chopsticks. hence we use a spoon and a fork to eat the rice (even then, just a spoon will usually suffice…). furthermore, our rice (especially chicken rice) comes on a plate, whereas Chinese eat rice out of a bowl.

well…fair enough… the angmoh might be just using the chicken rice meal as a learning opportunity to familiarise himself with chopstick usage. i can't say that i myself have been or am now an expert in chopstick-holding. i refused to learn/didn't hold them the correct way until i was about 17, and it's all thanks to N who encouraged me to use it the correct way, saying it would be beneficial in the future…

even then, i can't really say that the rice in certain japanese/chinese restaurants in singapore are of that good quality. certainly not the sushi from sakae… hence perhaps one might need even more chopstick skill to eat sushi in singapore? that's a thought..

in any case, if angmohs do prefer to eat bread and not rice, i guess… one might say we have to examine the way they eat their rice! =p

as for myself, i prefer rice over bread, cos i don't have to chew as much on rice than on bread… potatoes are mighty fine! especially for a carbo lover like me. noodles are not that nice/easy to eat either. pasta in smaller bits is preferable. like fusilli and penne… =) 

i ♥ internet radio

where else can you listen to classical music that doesn't play the same list day in day out?
plus while it's day here, it's night there, and there are no news breaks whatsoever! =))

also, at least they have more wind pieces, and not mostly piano, violin and cheesy soundtrack orchestra versions. also, unlike the local station, they actually play all the movements of a symphony, or concerto instead of just one mvt.

test tmr.. pray for me!

i ♥ school! =)))