(o.O)

forgot to surrender it to Him. maybe that's why it went like that… *sigh*
*clunks head against wall*

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anyway, yesterday's decision at 2330h took me lots and lots and lots of willpower. it was soooooo tough!! i stood there. and was almost crying indeed. i was sweating all over, and feeling extremely uncomfortable. in fact, the discomfort carried on from the time i was in the train… but… i didn't give in to the temptation. and i took a bus back to school! even though i was all by myself… =))))

even though as i was walking to the 179 and 199  berths, i saw these two buses zoom past me. and yet i waited!! major milestone ok!!!

the last time i came back to hall also, i was with J and i took a bus back! okay fair enough, it's much easier to take bus back with a friend cos at least you have someone to talk to. but last night was different. i was tempted at least 20 times to just turn around walk to the main road and stick my hand out. it would have taken a much shorter time to reach back then the bus.. but no i didn't! hehe

oh well… 

not a day goes by that i not think of it
i am living it there over here
it will go away when he comes

of school and dreams…

had another travel dream, this time we were all underwater. i don't remember who was inside and where we were headed, but i remember that we were trying to save our energy so that we could continue the long journey ahead of us. however someone refused to comply and spent a lot of it on herself. and someone else in the group got very angry. but i was indifferent.

ah well…

another week passed, another day closer to graduating, and there's still FYP to go. >_< bumped into my soci tutor while showing CL where Popular is. i forgot his name! this guy who does some form of martial art, has long hair, was from nus soci, left to do his phd in australia, and now is back for a semester before completing it in aust again, and is also pretty well-liked among the soci students and minors… judging from some petition someone started a while back to keep him as a tutor.

anw he still remembered me! =S i guess my name isn't very hard to forget eh… dunno whether it's a good or bad thing… hmmm…

tmr's the band concert, and i have a mission workshop before that. i've got a practice later and am already slightly tired and lazy right now. eureka didn't work the past few days, and my fyp is still so-so. i need to buck up! considering i added another responsibility into my thursdays - that of a music module on Baroque and Classical.

thank goodness Dr. E. is allowing me to sit in for the module. cos i totally missed the add-drop period and i'm now on this module for the pure interest of it. no essays to hand in, no exams to sit for. and i really really like it that way! will prob just do the essay topics that interest me, so that i can learn. =)))

tests start next week! can't wait… 

hmmm…

hmmm i have 5 more tickets left to sell…

my internship co. was really good to me, contributing to the fundraising efforts of the school band, and i feel a little more indebted to them to go back there and work. haha. but i believe i will learn much from them about my industry.

but i will still try out for the maersk traineeship program. after all, what are the chances that i can get in? 0.017%?  

IN YOUR DREAMS

woke up late for class this morning… and it's not my fault!!
cos i dreamt i was in new york!!

now then… which will you choose? class or new york? common sense will tell you the latter right??
hee~ jialat lah…

anw, this is really not my first "travel" dream… so far i've been to new york twice, once to dubai, once to switzerland and once to iraq. don't ask me why these places. i myself have no clue.

one a different note altogether, i realised that God has unravelled yet another layer of His plans for me. and this is concerning where my parents stay. i've hated the neighbourhood of hougang ever since i shifted there 8 years ago. i didn't understand why i had to leave the east after living there for my whole life. the answer only came last year, and i only realised it a few days ago.

last academic year, the college changed its hostel accommodation requirements, and where you live now constitutes quite a large percentage of the factors to be taken into consideration when they allocate you the room. 

the fact that i live in hougang gave me a lot a lot of points. and i got in through the first round. whereas friends who lived in like .. pasir ris or toa payoh couldn't get it. really blessed.

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another of his plans for me, is the fact that i'm actually in ntu now. i've been pretty bitter about not being able to study overseas, after all it was my mum who promised me that "i WILL have my chance", if she had used "i MIGHT have my chance" i wouldn't have been as psychologically deluded as i am now.

i've liked the campus really really a lot since my first year, and am gonna miss it. but at the same time i can't wait to go on to the next chapter of my life. 16 years of formal education! i'd rather take my learning out of the textbooks.

and looking at my current hostel room, i'm imagining what it would have been like if i lived overseas, i'd have to have a container to ship all my stuff back home. or maybe i wouldn't have the luxury of having extra stuff in the first place, like a printer.

as it is, living in singapore, it's more convenient to just bring stuff to and from home. although i forsee much trouble shifting back home at the end of this academic year. two printers a cello a cd player keyboard and many many other stuff. >_< 

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and now that i'm studying a somewhat internationally-based course, hopefully i'd be able to get to travel much in the future. well that's better than studying overseas, and then having to come back to singapore to work for the rest of your life right?

we'll see what God has in store for me.
time will tell.
but for now, it's all about telling the people around me that my God is the one and only. =)

killed in the middle of velocity

sorry for blurry picture… taken on cellphone camera…

this was taken when i hit a fly on top of my brother's notes. and it was killed in the middle of "velocity". literally.

taking lecture notes… a different perspective

this is for my reference… but you are welcomed to take a look if you like *winks*

engineering economy, tut1 

(more…)

never leave tissue in the washing machine

yes i’m still blogging (in my mind)

These few weeks have been really hectic for me. meeting up with the FYP prof, FYP group meetings, tough modules of Logistics, Strategy and Engineering Economy, band practices, and oh yes, not forgetting the company trip to Bintan.

Granted, this is my last year, and I have really cut down on outside activities like teaching piano full time, hall production, miscellaneous hall activities. Looking back on the past three years, I really wonder where I got all the energy to balance so many things at once.

Right now, it feels like I'm back at the beginning all over again. What with the enthusiasm for school, actually doing tutorials, and attending almost all the lectures, and spending breaks researching for projects, it feels like I am in Year 1.

I've got lots more to type about, stuff about the company trip, stuff about the upcoming Japan missions trip, stuff about school, stuff about band, but it's really late at night now, and i'm planning to go swim early tmr morning. so i shall continue again when i have the time. 

meanwhile, i'm still wondering…
(to be continued)

my stint at APC

nostalgia

hey-oh!!

what's up with me? i'm into the second week of my FINAL year!!! yep after fifteen years of studying, i'm finally in my FINAL year! as in really really FINAL year… no more studying after that and it's a whole new phase of life! yes as you can tell… i'm beginning to get rather emo, and also feeling very nostalgic (already, indeed!). i'm appreciating every. single. day, that i've been in school the whole of the first week. and i'm sad that i'm already into my second week.. so fast! 

this year also commemorates the 10th year anniversary since i left my elementary school and i guess i'm the only one who's most motivated to organise a huge class gathering, but i've as yet found the time to do it… oh well…

last week also saw me go a little crazy. i went to make my own t-shirt… it's plain white with the words "I AM NOT A FRESHIE" at the front, and at the back it says "but i'm still lost anyway…", which is kinda true, cos i couldn't find LT 20 the first week of school… >_< final year already and still like that… tsk tsk… that shirt indeed got me a lot of attention =p but i'd been toying with that idea for more than a year already, and i'm glad i did it, albeit only in the final year.

meanwhile, i've been busy preparing for a concert. practices three times a week! at least i'm enjoying myself playing my instrument! it's less than a month to the concert, and we still sound a little raw, but things are starting to shape up! and i know we'll be ready in time for the performance! do come and support if you are free on the 1st of Sept. at least so that i know that my practices don't go to waste… =)))

details as follows…

the poster here is rather small, but i think you can click on it for a bigger view =)))

p.s. i need help with ticket sales *HINT* =p 

my roommate and i have been getting on pretty well… one thing that's for sure, i speak proper english around her! haha no singlish lor!! which is good i guess… cos my english improves, and she can understand me. apparently when i speak singlish, she cannot catch it at all… *duh* right… haha

tmr hall cell kicks off! i'm really excited abt it! and oh yah today was visiting the eca booths, and came across campus crusade's one. and they were inviting me to a "vision tea" on thursday. sounds interesting eh? a little like the five loaves and two fish… everyone sits down, and by faith you'll see a vision and then there'll be tea in front of you! hee~

oh and today… what was really funny abt lunch at cafe al fresco was the "butter trade" we were talking about… haha … i liked that place. lunch hour and yet not many ppl. phew… and then we went to career services office where i signed up for a resume writing workshop and wine tasting workshop. looking forward to them! 

and i've decided to keep a diary cos of my heavy schedule! and instead of writing them down in paper, i've decided to keep it online! cos it's so much easier that way!! google calendars is the way to go!! hee~

thanksgiving: that school has started, and that i have one last year as a student to cherish and hold dear to my heart; for the wonderful friends that i've made throughout the three years. and basically for my whole MS cohort! i love you guys! thanks for tolerating me and my nonsense also… =p

prayer requests: that fyp preparations, and research would go fine. and that i would have the wisdom to know what to do and what to look for. starting to feel the stress. also praying that i'd not get distracted! so many ppl around me attached or getting attached… feeling a different kind of stress. haha… =) nah don't worry abt the latter.. i'm fine. really. =)))