travel dreams. again.

another two more travel dreams!!!

friday night - i think it is so cool how in dreams you can just find yourself in two places in the split of a second. my mom and i were walking down this plaza - it was huge and spacious - i think we were in Italy but was not quite sure. Then my mom happened to bump into her secondary school friend, who is a teacher, and in the dream was bringing some sports students around. The two were obviously very happy to meet, and then he asked us for directions to the nearest duck restaurant. And then we were transported back to Singapore again.

So after having dinner and lots of chatting, the students were still not full yet. But it was very late, and there were not many supper places around that were open. I went out looking for one. And halfway walking, I was transported to Italy. and instead of looking for supper i was looking for an internet cafe. and i found one went in, and of all ppl saw ZZ from church in there. i decided to surprise him by logging onto another computer, msning him to look behind, and i stood behind him and he got a shock that someone he knew would be just as far away from home too. and then i woke up - mind still being in italy.

i think i know what explains me finding ZZ at the cafe. whenever i wake up and check my msn i’ll get this weird link from his msn msg. cos his computer had been infected with a virus. i didn’t know that it would eventually have worked its way into a dream of mine!!! so weird.

TODAY
last night’s dream had to be the best of all. i went with two friends of mine from Singapore on an impromptu trip to california. i was just going to try my luck and see if i can find W there. somehow, after searching for a day and a half we made a new friend and found the place in the evening! i was nervous knocking on the door, but they were sooooo nice upon our meeting them! i saw P and W but not T. and we were just talking, and yes i felt like an extreme stalker during the whole period. however, we couldn’t stay long as they were busy and upon saying goodbye P knew abt my crush and gave me very encouraging words. and then W came over and we kissed. wah i just fainted. and then we left the apartment, exploring california for abt a day more, all the way feeling very high. and only when i was in the plane on the way back to sg that i realised i did not meet T at all, even though i went all the way to see them. haha.

and that was just the gist of it. i haven’t even bothered to describe in detail the sights i saw, what the house looked like, the surrounding neighbourhood whether W was shirtless (^.<) etc. but i know it was all prob not what the real cal looks like. cos it looked to me like a mixture of japan and singapore. i guessed my eyes haven’t been opened wide enough yet.

argh don’t you just hate waking up sometimes???

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dream travel log:

twice to new york
once to california
once to dubai
once to iraq
once to swizerland    
once to italy
thrice to Japan

it’s TTOTY again!!!

i’m sure many of you have heard of TTOTM, it’s basically when girls go beserk cos of hormonal imbalance… but have you heard of TTOTY???

bascially there are many TTOTYs… but this particular TTOTY is when all the pre-college students start hunting around for the suitable course to waste the next four years of their life..

and because i’m so open about it in my blog, being a maritime studies major, basically kids who have blog-googled "maritime studies" have come straight to my blog. and because i’m so open about my email address, i’ve had at least three Year Zeros emailing me and one even adding me on msn. oh well…

welcome to my blog, potential maritime students. not that i can advise you very much on entry requirements, being an almost-graduate myself (yes it’s too outdated info for me) i can tell you what to expect on this course and the attitude you have to bring in. do go ahead and add me or email me. just do try to join the Maritime Studies facebook group too? so we can provide a wider perspective in trying to answer your questions. =))) have fun.

a hope for us!

wow! this is a first! i was so totally not expecting it…

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i’m sure many have heard about the triple-room sharing in ntu hostels. it was an idea brought up by the school authorities. and it didn’t come across as a very good idea among the student body. naturlich.

and many groups protested against it. apparently the SU, which is the supposed "official" student voice, did not really play a part in the protest and it was left to hall committees and student leaders of clubs. and guess what? they’re really not gonna implement it anymore!!

wow. this is the first time i actually experience first-hand, authorities listening to the student body and letting us have a say. doesn’t really happen much in this country anyway. looks like when singaporeans are passionate about something that would affect them dearly, they would go all out. perhaps this is our future? it’s always abt finding that common ground, and not plainly saying, "let’s just grind and bear it." i wonder how long we can grind and bear stuff for…

anyway, triple-room doesn’t affect me since i’m graduating. nevertheless i still wore a black t-shirt today. come on, black is such a .. common/neutral colour. my roommate unknowingly wore black today too. when i asked her if it was because of the hall thing, she totally didn’t realise she was wearing black.

i think if i have to share the room with another roommate, it’s not a problem for me. the problem, rather, would be for them having to live with someone like me. (^.^)

heart vs mind; passion vs reason

it’s 4 plus and i can’t sleep. my mind is thinkg too much.. racing too fast.. and the beats just keep getting quicker, and the clock ticks faster. as time races down to this wed. three rehearsals. same day. same time.

A commented that i don’t have my priorities right. i believe i do. it’s just a matter of heart vs mind; passion vs reason.

my minds says i should rank these in the order of importance
nie band, ntu band and then nusso.  and even if i go for nie band and miss ntu band, to A the reason is still valid. cos of the sunday concert. but i know my heart

and passion says otherwise. the rank is then nusso, ntusb, niesb. my chance to play orch music and i pass on on it? something i’ve waited so long for. 4 years? and over the next week i can’t go for bhso on sunday cos of the concert. and last sunday was horrid. cos i was so tired after nie’s prac. band and orch embrouchure so do not go together! well they should. but i’m not strong enough to keep it there. and i’d be too soft anyway. it was SOOOOO LOOOUUUUUDDDD in the morning and i couldn’t make a soft note in the afternoon. it was horrid. simply horrid.

this week all the tertiary music groups are stopping.  

this sun is also the last concert i’ll do with niesb. not that they owe me anything or do i owe them but i just thought i could devote friday evenings to practise. since i’m living 4 minutes away. but this time round i cannot take the conducting, nor the intonation. i thought things might get better with time. but some things don’t. maybe in the long term though.. we’ll see.. 

mayb i won’t go for orch if lsl doesn’t turn up on wed. ohhhh i don’t know. for now i’ll push it aside and decide when the dreaded evening approaches. how can something so happy to me turn out so sad.        

let’s see i have an 0830 class tmr and i’m still here typing. it’s ridiculous. clearly heart over mind now. goodnight. 

forgiveness

i’m human and i know how humans think. it might seem like they’ve forgiven you totally but most of the time it’s not. there’s still a little bit of resentment in the human heart. but it’s not them who will look at you and judge you in the end. it’s Jesus. and Jesus has forgiven you totally. unconditionally He loves you. repent and draw close to Him!

another travel dream!!!

You know what they say… Things Happen In Dreams

Here’s what i say:     Dreams Make Things Happen =))) 

today’s travel dream was suuuuuuuuuper real. 

it was to Japan. again! it’s at least the third time i’m going Japan (in my dreams i mean).

the last time i dreamt  abt Japan, it was two days in a row… it sort of continued the next night! amazing right? this happened abt 2 weeks ago. so it’s not exactly like right after the Japan trip.

although the nights right after the Japan trip i did dream of Japan. but that one’s not counted, cos it could very well be a psychological thing.

in Japan today I arrived in the evening. i spent quite a bit of time in the plane, just travelling there. and when i reached, i faced a lot of escalators! i didn’t know why. so i kept going down and down, and when i got out of the airport, i kinda just wandered around by myself a bit. looking at stuff … and then when i was about to find a place to go to… i realised that i didn’t have a place to go! so i had to think of where i can go. (oh gosh that sounds so bimbotic…)

i spent A LOT OF TIME just looking for a subway map. you know the complex looking one with crisscrossing of trains…. so i was going to kind of give up cos it really was getting late. and then i realised i forgot to collect my luggage bag!! no wonder my hands felt so empty… so i had to rush up the escalators and go to the left-behind baggage counter. on the way i decided i could call ppl i know there. dan and joy told me it was too late and they can’t come and pick me up, cos i was rather far away. 

Louis and Chris offered to pick me up though. but i felt bad for troubling them, and they gave me directions for train services, but my clocked said 00:00 and i knew the train services was almost all going to stop by then. so i decided to collect my luggage and look for a hotel nearby, and at the back of my head i knew the hotels around the area were pretty expensive. so i was very stressed.

and then i woke up.

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and this is not my only travelling dream!! >.<
let’s do a tabulation.. so far i’ve been

twice to new york
once to dubai (i took a train there all the way from singapore!!!)
once to iraq
once to swizerland     and
thrice to Japan

and these are only the dreams that i actually remember.
and everytime these travelling dreams happen, i literally sleep in…..

the new york one was quite funny.. i remember… cos i woke up like 5-6 times during the dream and went back and continued where i stopped off…cos i REFUSED to come back to singapore.
haha.

satisfied.

SUPER TIRED CAN.
two concert nights in a row.

and finally can work on fyp freely without any musical baggage. i’m so gonna mug whole of tonight on fyp fyp fyp fyp fyp. bought beer and chips and just finished a tub of ben&jerry’s. eeks. calorie overload.

both concerts were not bad lah. i think band concert was a little mismatched. in terms of repertoire and audience. we’re trying for more advanced pieces, but the kind of audience we have coming prefer the bom-chat-chat kind. >.< oh well. and i don’t think we can pull off advanced pieces to the liking of hardcore band music lovers that well either. and i think we pull off bom-chat-chat pieces too well at that.

i wonder what kind of direction we’re aiming for. i hope the new committee has a clear focus/goal/target. and i hope that mr. oura and the band would bond more. i think we’re gonna take part in wmc. better get gold sia. otherwise take part for what…

as for today’s bhso concert. the beethoven running part went ok! phew… but we massacred brahms. the highlight was indeed the piano concerto. of which the orch parts were not too hard for the winds but the strings could have played out more. especially the lower strings. oh how i wish i can go play cello!

brahms got slaughtered left right centre, a hundred gazillion times, got chopped up into a million pieces and thrown into the sea, but still his body bits would not sink… sigh what a pity such a great work was in a dire state. >.< but i have to admit it’s not an easy work. brahms’s orchestration is crazily amazing. every part is so important. >.<

i’m just so glad i got the chance to play it. now i want to play 1, 2 and 3 to complete everything. and anw after all bhso is indeed a community orchestra that believes in giving chances. and that i have to be extremely thankful for. it’s a niche market in itself.

how i wish everyone in the orchestra had listened to the brahms. i bet some haven’t. and they don’t know the beauty of the symphony. even though the massacre happened, the audience still clapped pretty much a lot. i was thinking they’re nuts!

but then again, i realised only after the concert, that most of them were there to see the piano concerto, and prob are impressionable kids who came to see their band teacher play the solo. so the brahms was probably nice. but indeed they are very forgiving. and we got to play our encore. but here’s the thing the encore is ten thousand times better than the brahms. so at least we redeemed ourselves.

but the soloist is amazing! he’s really good….. only shine during the concert… lol… i couldn’t really follow him during the rehearsals. and i read from the prog bklet that he’s a YJC music A-lvl teacher. wow YJ has music now? amazing. i wonder where we’re heading in the arts. i hope he truly instills the love of music in his students… and not treat it as an academic exercise. >.< dr. chong from nie is amazing in that sense.

friday the 29th, february.

Brassiere Massacre.
Victims all lined up in a row. Awaiting the candlelight virgil.

The killing field….

Although a nicer caption would probably be .. "Phew! What a night…"

It certainly does more justice to a loserish statement such as
"The washing machine did it."

OH and guess what? right after i hung up the rest of the laundry, I started cutting my nails, and on the very first nail………………….

Now if someone isn’t REALLY out to get me… grrrr… it happens only once every four years.. but i hate feb 29th already…