just another post.

10-13-07

oh my goodness! i just finished an anime 2 days straight!! i know.. it's crazy but i was really hooked! this is the second anime i've ever watched in my life. the first being hale nochi guu and i didn't even follow that through. but…. NODAME CANTABILE is sooooooooooooooooooooo nice!!!!! yipppee~

i really want to go buy the series. it's very very inspiring and the pieces are awesome!!! can i recommend all the music friends of mine to go watch it? please please please please please. haha.

anyway thursday just saw the end of an essay. PHEW. It was a crazy one. I never thought i'd put so much effort into something which I am not even given credits for. But i begged to be in the class despite not being able to get the Academic Units. I guess if you do something out of interest, you give it more effort. Rather than having to do something for the grades, your focus on the essay will start to change. =.="""

But now i have an Final Year Project to look at. and i've decided that i'm gonna channel the passion for my music essay into it. And i'll treat the FYP as something that W, C and I are going to publish in a journal or something. this means 120% effort!!!　ぎゃぼ！！！

there's so many things in life i have an interest in! like history, music and shipping (i guess). if only i could study history… the essay inspired me to go delve deep again into the roots of the world. and i am transformed back to 1615 when Martin Luther started the Protestant Reformation and how the Lutheran Mass was adapted from the Catholic. And i'm insipired to study music too…  what with me and my perfect pitch too… *sigh* i believe i'm not pushed hard enough yet. 

and pushing the wrong way can cause me to lose my interest. failing me for two full years when i got an A1 in the end and your best students got B3 was not the way to go. history is subjective and not everyone has to write in your style. i lost my interest then.

scolding and using brute tactics to get your students to do something causes their love for something to wane. looking in retrospect, the students who dropped out are the ones pursuing music full-time and the ones who remained are not save one.

but here i am. in a course that will guarantee something i have longed to do for the longest time - travel. and yet while studying i get the best of all the worlds. i get to play my instrument still. and attend music classes.

and in the class on thursday we dissected CPE Bach's Symphony. And it got me pretty sad too. cos we made him seem so predictable. perhaps that's why i don't want to study music too? cos i love baroque, and when one breaks down the piece into its elements, like the theme, how it modulates, the key's relation to the original blah blah blah it becomes dead. the piece has no more life to it. and when you listen to it you are no longer enthralled. you just listen out very very academically how the piece is written. and that's sad.

it's akin to seeing a beautiful person and wanting to know how come the person is so beautiful, you decide to take her apart. and so you separate the heart from the arm from the eye. and then you realise, actually there's nothing that makes her so different. but when you put the whole person back together again, you realise she's dead. and that there's no more character and life in her.

what a way to think huh.