musings
10-6-07and suddenly i've been given so much time. and i am at a loss of what to do. i have so much to start on. but i have to overcome one thing first - inertia. then again, it may be the much needed rest from the horrors and battle of last night.
i (sometimes) dislike it when things don't according to plan. especially if they are things i look forward to doing. i guess if it's something i don't look forward to then i'm happy if it doesn't go according to plan.
i feel as if i'm deterioriating. i need to start an exercise regime once again. and i'll start by going for one of my infamous "pyschotic long walks" (inside joke) right after i blog this entry.
i'm tempted to head down to town, but town is where it's at. where it's crowded and i have to pass by a whole huge crowd at jp before i head to town where there is more crowd. i want to practise but i don't know when she's coming back. i guess i could head to the music rooms. i have logistics to do but ….. but.
have you ever had the feeling where you stand at the platform and thought what it would be like to just jump off as the train approaches? it's definitely a "once-in-a-lifetime" experience. like jumping off a 20-storey building, or off a bridge onto the highway below. but a stupid way of putting "once-in-a-lifetime" yah? *shudder* cos after that you have no more life.
it is nice to have the environment around you quiet. yet you long for companionship. someone to share that quietness with you.
today we took a walk with God. mine wasn't the same as C and X's experiences. i poured out my fears, concerns and worries to Him. and He knows.
