(o.O)
09-4-07forgot to surrender it to Him. maybe that's why it went like that… *sigh*
*clunks head against wall*
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anyway, yesterday's decision at 2330h took me lots and lots and lots of willpower. it was soooooo tough!! i stood there. and was almost crying indeed. i was sweating all over, and feeling extremely uncomfortable. in fact, the discomfort carried on from the time i was in the train… but… i didn't give in to the temptation. and i took a bus back to school! even though i was all by myself… =))))
even though as i was walking to the 179 and 199 berths, i saw these two buses zoom past me. and yet i waited!! major milestone ok!!!
the last time i came back to hall also, i was with J and i took a bus back! okay fair enough, it's much easier to take bus back with a friend cos at least you have someone to talk to. but last night was different. i was tempted at least 20 times to just turn around walk to the main road and stick my hand out. it would have taken a much shorter time to reach back then the bus.. but no i didn't! hehe
oh well…
not a day goes by that i not think of it
i am living it there over here
it will go away when he comes
